It is an awareness that I make a decision for change in my life, but I can’t change it. I desire it, but I can’t do anything about it. So I call out to the Lord. He’s the One that has to save me. And after He saves me it’s the same. I make decisions to do what is right; but it is up to His Spirit to empower me. It is up to His Spirit to move in me and through me to accomplish those things. That is where I serve Him: in my reasoning processes as I reason things out in life.